Hey guys, so, some of you know what's been going on lately because we've talked on skype and I'm so grateful that some people actually care. Because lately I've been feeling really alone and down. The reason might seem really stupid, but it's everything to me because I can never escape this. So, during my fall play, these freshmen from my previous school and a senior (who's like a big brother to me) started teasing me because I was vegan. And I can honestly say it was the most miserable play I've ever done. So, after closing night, as soon as I got home, I ranted about it and poured all my feelings onto my snapchat story. One of my freshmen friends apologized for making me feel bad about myself and a bunch of my other friends (who weren't even in the play) said that it was really messed up for what I went through and that it shouldn't matter if I'm vegan or not and they loved me the way I was.
I thought I was safe, until the spring musical started. I thought the fall play was bad but the spring musical is a complete nightmare. Two of the freshmen continue to harass me about it, and the worst part is, that one of my friends who comforted me on snapchat actually betrayed me and took their side. And I have to say, she's making me feel worse about myself then those two freshmen. And when they tease me as a team, I feel completely crushed.
Now, let me tell you what I'm doing...nothing. Absolutely nothing. They tease me because they think I don't care. They think it's all in good fun because I just laugh it off. They think it's all a joke. But to me, it's a really cruel joke. But it's come to a point where I've reached such a depressed level, I need to tell them to stop before they break me down any further. But they see me as the sweet and innocent type, so anything serious I try to say will just come off as a joke to them and they'll push me down harder and faster than I can get up. I just want it all to stop, and I tried to be serious with my friend, but I ended up apologizing instead because I felt bad for "being salty" even though I had every right to be.
I just don't know what to do, and I can't just let this go on forever. Then I'll never be happy with myself. I need your guys' help. Please! ;-;
Ice Gaze, I'm really sorry that you've been through this. By personal experience I know how hard it can be getting back on your feet when you're depressed. I also get depressed because I don't have any friends IRL, just people I've met through social media. I've had my tough days, but I can assure you that if you'd like to talk to me about it, I'd be happy to.
ReplyDeleteI'll pray so that you can get better soon.
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ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry that you have to go through that. I'm actually a vegetarian myself and people make fun of me all the time. I just want you to know that you are not alone. Personally, i've been in your shoes, even today I was criticized. But you need to keep your head held high. If that so called "friend" betrayed you, then they don't deserve your friendship. Find friends that will support you through thick and thin, once you find them, they will never leave your side and will have your back. I promise you that things will get better, just try your hardest and never give up.
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