Hello guys! I hope you all enjoyed the first day of Spoopy Week! And if you didn't see it yet, I would really love and appreciate it if you did. It would mean alot to me. But anyway, that's not what this post is about. Today at school, we had a guy come in and talk to our entire grade in our auditorium. At first, he seemed like a really cool and funny guy. He told us he was going to put on a little skit for us by using the four characters he would present (behind him were 4 chairs, each with a different costume/accessory). The first character was a young boy who had ADHD and I could tell he was trying to be funny with it, not offensive. And it was, everyone got a good laugh from it. But let's just say, it got deep real fast.
The next character was a football player from Rutgers University. Again, I didn't think much of it, and everyone laughed when he did his voice for the character. But soon, it took a dark turn. He began talking about how he was racial descriminated because he was black (he really was black) and people only see him as that guy who plays football. He also began talking about being gay/lesbian and how some people were afraid to come out because they knew society wouldn't except them.
This new character hit me hard. He put on a black hoodie that said, 'Hate Me' on the front. This character had a high pitched voice and was often teased about being jewish. He also said he would often get teased about wearing black every single day. This is where it got really deep and dark. He reminded us all of that activity we used to do in elementry school, I'm sure you've done it. You know? "Cross out the object or shape that's different"? That one? He then told us that people made him feel inferior and different, so he tried to cross himself out...with a blade to the wrist.
The last character was a girl who got suspended for yelling at a boy student while she was presenting. She said the boy called her a nazi since she was german and she said something back (honestly, I forgot, I was still shook by the character before) and she got sent down to the principals office. She tried to explain but she got suspended for 'talking back to the principal'. She was frustrated because she knew that no one would listen to her because she was a girl and that she felt she was worth nothing to this world.
There were plenty other characters dealing with suicide, molesting, special needs, LGBT and so much more. And honestly, I got a reminder from my past. I remembered being that third character and being depressed almost every single day of my life. Then coming home to my favorite pair of scissors that would be stained with blood from the day before. Although I hid my feelings well, I would always take that mask off only in my room when the lights were off.
There were so many other people in the audience who were crying and wanted to thank the man for that performance, but I wasn't. Back then I would've but today, I didn't. I still thanked him and told him that I was once suicidal, but I didn't shed a tear. I could feel it too, I wanted to cry, but I couldn't. So, I hugged a bunch of the people who were crying to let them know that they weren't alone.
For those who made it this far, I just want you all to know that you are all beautiful individuals. Whether you're a girl, LGBT, suicidal, a victim of molestation, or anything else, don't let anyone put you down for who you are. You're never alone if you feel like you're worth nothing. There's always going to be someone in your life that loves you. You're all beautiful on the inside and out. I was able to get over my depression and I hope anyone who deals with depression will someday be free from the chains that weigh them down. And even if you don't feel loved, just remember:
I love you <3
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